i miss being in a relationship so much. so i'm dating several people rite now, but i can't get myself to feel like i want a relationship with anyone in particular.

so my thing is that i'm being celibate until i get into a loving happy relationship. and no matter how much i want one of those, i can't feel enough for anyone to want to be in a relationship with them. has james really fucked me up that badly in the head that i'm incapable of loving again? i really hope not, because that'd suck majorly. i think i just haven't had enough time with any one person to feel relationship-y feeling yet. and there are other people from my past that pulls on my heartstrings now.

there are times when i'd just listen to a song or just lay down on my bed and i'll say "i miss my boyfriend." its' just that i dont' have one and i have no idea who i have in mind when i say that. wow i'm so romantic...

Jenni Cheung at 01:52 AM

i FINALLY saw Sin City. i was confused about several things (like the first "hero" and the second "hero": are they the same person? what happened to wendy?) the girl from gilmore girls has such a pretty face and jessica alba has a hotass body!

anyway, i thought the movie was a little long, but i was in utter anticipation the whole way through. i was kinda worried about the "comic book effect" because of the movie "sky captain" (it was a bit much in that movie) but it worked pretty well in this movie. some of the scenes are pretty graphic, but that's not a bad thing at all. i'm still confused about how it all tied together though (other than it's taking place in sin city.) the "old town girls" are badass!

Jenni Cheung at 01:17 AM

I need to find a program or web service that will take the images I email to them and then upload it to a server I specify and maybe rename it too... any ideas?

Jenni Cheung at 12:23 PM

so I was feeling too lazy to do my hw for class or to go to class again on tuesday.... why? cuz I was sooo engrossed in trying to figure out applescript. since I didn't have a webcam software that can get info from my isight and ftp 2 the server, I figured I'd write a script that will make that happen that will also rename these images to make it all organized in the folder.
its pretty nifty, but not as efficient as it could be. at least it works! I should just use my usb webcam.... maybe there's a way I can make those programs "see" my isight... it was funtimes scripting tho, im pretty proud of myself! shoulda been a cs major....

Jenni Cheung at 11:36 AM

is fuckin tough! actually it's not that difficult doing the flats, but it's so tedious. last sunday i was supposed to go to this class that andrew had on coloring, but then i missed it because i thought it was at a different time than it really was. so i went to his place on thursday instead to learn how to color, but the assignment is due tomorrow! and i'm hardly close to being done (because of all the different sections i have to do!) so imma try my best, but it'll be barely done when i turn it in

sigh...

Jenni Cheung at 07:52 PM

so last last saturday night, i went to matt's place and he was hosting a get-together watching ULTIMATE FIGHTING CHAMPIONSHIP and i figured i'd go cuz i'd be something fun and new.... i never knew that it'd be so much fun watching fighting! it's pretty exciting watching people trying to beat the shit out of each other for real.

so after the thing, they all went to the grass area in the complex and starting wrestling each other. i was soo wishing that there was another person my size so that i could fight too! fighting is soo fun when it's in the name of fun... so one of the guys suggested that i fight one of the other guys, and then i said i totally would do it if i could bite (i needed an edge because of the obvious disadvantage i had.) i also was kinda buzzed (had 4 drinks) and all of a sudden, one of the guys tommy attacked me! i was on the ground, and thrashing around in my drunken rage! i started punching, kicking, pushing, and when his arm got close enough to my mouth, i BIT WITH ALL MY MIGHT! it was a kickass 10-second or so fight! i need to find a girly fighting partner...

Jenni Cheung at 03:51 PM

I love having long hair! I have thick hair for an asian, and its not tha straight naturally, so I thought my hair would just be poofy. but with it layered, its actually really flattering. and I'm too lazy to style it, so I just let it try about 90%, then twirl it in a bun to dry the rest. and when untwirled, I have sexy porn hair!! (long hair with curled ends all sexy-like) ooooh, I feel so feminine!

Jenni Cheung at 02:15 PM

can someone find me a good cam software that will work on mac osx and my isight, and will upload directly to my site via FTP, and that i can put captions on, AND THAT I DON"T HAVE TO PAY FOR? i found one that has good functions (imagecaster) but that's like 30 bucks and that's 30 more than i'm willing to pay rite now... so if u see anything around, just lemme know, ok?

Jenni Cheung at 03:00 AM

went with gabriel to the zoo on sunday. the los angeles zoo. this was the first time i've ever been there. SOO many things were under construction, so we didn't see as many animals as hoped... but that's ok! i had a blast! ya see, i'm actually diggin this gabriel guy pretty hard (this is like our 8th date or so) and in the children's zoo, there's this cave thing, and its' fun to kiss in! (no, nothing more, just regular kissing, so stop thinking dirty!) anyway... zoo is always a fun date place, cuz u can talk about animals when u dont' wanna talk about anything else

Jenni Cheung at 02:58 AM

saturday i went rock climbing for the first time with cory. not real rocks, just those walls with things on them. i LOVE to climb. i've always been a natural tomboy (i had stitches in my tongue from falling down from climbing the walls in my house when i was 6). so i was sooo psyched about going rockclimbing. first i went up a 5.6 trail (that's the lowest number there) and throughout the outing, i finally conquered 5.9. after that one, my arms were too tired to do anymore (i climbed about 7 times.)

i can't wait to go again! i gotta work on my finger strength though, some of those thingies are so small! i dunno how people do it...

Jenni Cheung at 07:46 PM

went clubbing with johnny at level 3 at hollywood and highland. we went early so no one was dancing when we were there, but after a lil, it got pretty packed and we left around 11:30. i hate dancing around too many people.

it's so awkward that i ran into so many people i know, what a small world. this is why i hardly ever go clubbing, and why i dont' go to "asian" clubs. new things are cool. and dancing around people just limits your movement, which totally takes away the purpose of going clubbing (which is just having fun dancing to cool songs to me).

one guy i used to date was there and he totally downgraded... the girl he was with was... bleh (yeah that was soo vain, but it's not like she's even OK. i'll stop being so superficial now. i'm typing this while i'm still a lil drunk.)

Jenni Cheung at 01:05 AM

i'm watching "con" on comedy central now, and its hilarious!!! sklyar stone is sexy (a good sense of humor always does that). catch that show if you get a chance.

it's a show about where he tries to get things for free by conning people. it's pretty dope.

Jenni Cheung at 01:01 AM

on wednesday nite, i participated in my first "extra work" (i put the quotation marks in cuz i wasn't paid) and it was sooo cold. me and gabe got onto the set at around 7pm, and we waited around until 8 before we were needed. until then, i was taking food from the table and eating and playing my psp.

so we found out that the video was gonna be about a car accident in the RAIN. yeah, there was a crane with a hose attached to it. and it was COLD out and breezy. and i was all dressed in my tight jeans and a white tank top so that i could be seen cuz i wanted so badly to get some screen time (i get excited about shit like this cuz i'm a smalltown girl - i grew up in like the midwest, comeon) so i was cold and wet and just shivering.

the other extras that weren't paid were real fans, like diehard fans. i felt kinda out of place since i only know the name of the lead singer, and i like their music, but not to the point where i was crazy about them. but yeah, can't wait till it comes out because i really really hope i get to see me in it.

we left early because i was too tired (this was 3:15 am or so, the shoot was gonna last till 6) and it was sooo cold. and we were moved to a different location to shoot already, so i figured that i got enough in the front for the other part to be content. so yeah. we'll see

in case y'all are wonderin, i'm on the mailing list from fanscape.com under simple plan, so they sent out an email asking for extras, and tuesday nite i found out that i got picked to be an extra. of course i jumped at the opportunity because i like the band and the last time i tried to get tix for their show, they sold out before tix came out for the public. so i just wanted to see them. and i DID! i was standing rite behind the director dude from MADD when they were interviewing the band, and afterwards, pierre scolded me for trying to take pix cuz he thought i was gonna have a flash go off (of course i didn't have the flash on, i'm not stupid) and i got a crappy pic with him (crappy meaning camera resolution) with my tmobile sidekick. it was pretty cool, but i didn't have anything cool for him to sign, so i'm autographless.

Jenni Cheung at 12:59 AM

so i'm done with bells palsy. well i think there's still traces of it, but nothing i can physically see. its' just that when i press on some of my left facial muscles some of them still hurts. but my smile is back!

i ended up withdrawing the 10th week of winter quarter. i was failing too badly. times were pretttty tough. i'd say it, but then it's illegal. lets just say it's like Linkin Park's track number 9 of "Meteora."

so now i'm eating a lil healthier (i cooked last week!) and gabriel took me for a hike up a trail in the monrovia forest/hills/thing. i slipped on a rock in one of the streams and hurt my knee. my feet were also soaked and muddy. yumm ^_^

imma post new pics within the next hour that i took in late jan or early feb. i'll put the old pics of me and james (that asshole) in the gallery along with the pics i took in late jan. i think this week i'll do another set. cuz i'm HEALTHY again!!!! YAY!!!! so yeah, i'll update more now that i'm not fucked up like i was the past months.

oh yeah, i updated the calender section. it's missing a lot of pas events, but i don't hae the time to put those up

Jenni Cheung at 01:40 AM